life changes

right now it feels like life is about to change, but i'm scared for it. my relationship is in a delicate space right now. heather and drinking and antisocial behavior and depression and all this bad stuff that has negatively impacted my life. i hate it. i hate my job, am ready to leave, but the economy terrifies me. i'm finally ready to go back to school, but for what? my therapist left and i quit therapy. i haven't lost any weight in months.