Furiousity

I'm really mad at my roommate right now. This morning she invited me out for drinks tonight, after she and a friend had dinner. I had plans to go out to my parents, but jumped at the rare invitation as I currently have no social life, so called my mom and cancelled - she totally understood.

I went to the Polish Hill pool, thinking I might meet up with Jennifer and her family, and ran into Meredith on my way there. She suggested seeing a movie that night, and I agreed, thinking I would have time to see the movie and do drinks. J and her fam arrived at the same time I did and we hung out for a while, then they invited me to dinner. M had suggested seeing Inception at 8. I could have done dinner and the movie, but the movie was so long I would have been very late for the drinks, and I hadn't gotten the impression that Joc would be out late. So I took a rain check on the movie, went to dinner, biked back, showered and then texted Joc at 9:30 to confirm. She said they'd be another half hour, which was perfect. Then a half hour later she texts "I think I might just wanna go home. They want to eat dessert. Boring"

I am just so mad. I turned down the movie because of our plans and she blows them off at LITERALLY the last second. It's even worse because I have no one else to go out with - if the situation were reversed and she wanted to go out, there's lots of people she could call. Her decision to go home effectively means I can't go out. It's just rude and insensitive and selfish.

She has totally sucked as a friend since I moved in. I would be nicer to a random stranger than she has been to me. She is constantly going out and not inviting me. Even this situation, she invited me for drinks, not for the dinner, even though I obviously won't have dinner plans. I'm not a crazy needy person, but I am really alone right night and it's difficult. I've gone from a situation where I was living with my partner and always had someone to do things with to one where I'm alone all the time and it's difficult to meet new people. I thought Joc would be understanding and this morning I kind of thought she was, but this sort of behavior makes me not want to hang out with her ever.

She made a comment about how I need to stop spending so much time out in Wexford. Well, I tried... but her crappy actions make my hanging out with my parents a lot more attractive.

I really hope she moves to a city where she knows no one and gets treated the way she's treating me.